#1 April 14,2021

 


This was my letter from my best friend, Mike...

Betty, I need to block you from my phone messages for a while. At this point it's more than I can handle listening to without it stressing me out daily.

Wow. I seriously need to improve.

I'm not a good person right now I guess. And there is like enormous room for improvement. I broke my word to him when we agreed to be friends: that is it is my job to put a smile on his face.

I failed at that more than I succeeded at it.

So I just have to figure out how to be a better person, how to be better somehow.

I think there are things that I don't see about myself just simply because I'm cocky. Simply because I tell myself that's who I am take it or leave it.

Maybe I can use this year to really work on that aspect of myself, the aspect of being a more positive influence genuinely.

I asked Mike to give me one year to get myself together to make myself a better person worthy of his friendship.

I am the atrocity that my mom made.

The cognitively brutal truthsayer. The unflinching and ruthless purveyor of logic.

But we're not at war.

And Mike was my friend.

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