#38 July 28, 2021

Dear Mike,

Summer has flown by.  School for teachers will start up August 6, 2021.  That's in two weeks.  

I've made progress with my mother.  We were disparate and now I'm trying to get her to cling onto health.  

Just because she is 75 years old she lost a sense of vigor.  She became used to being depleted.  I hit a hard reverse on that state of mind.  I sent her something almost daily to shock her out of complacency.  My mother had embraced fastigue as an inherent fact of aging.  I had to challenge her emotionally to lose that state of mind.  Next I have to educate her on sleep, inflammation, gut and brain connection and finally  exercise.  If she can get a grip on these subjects then she has a chance at turning her life around.

I've made progress with my house.  I've promised myself to get it together.  And I'm getting there.  It feels good.

I wanted 10 new best friends and it's a tough journey because I can be niaave I suppose and give energy in the wrong direction.  It's okay to become misdirected and fail.  That only teaches me more about myself.  

It's been sort of hard trying to piece together a narrative about my situation with my mother.  Each day that passes I grow more distant from you.  I wish that wasn't the case.  I wish that you are a part of my life Mike.  

Betty