#32 July, 2, 2021

Hi Mike,

So I'm on this productivity kick.

And listening to the book Atomic Habits.

It feels like my life is about creating the Six Million Dollar Man.  Bigger.  Stronger.  Faster.  More capable.

I tried to do that with my kids.  And now with myself.  

Perhaps with YouTube.  With the world.  I think that is my driving force.  It is my driving force because I ask the question, "Why?"

I have asked both children at one time, what is the meaning of life.

I need them to wrestle with it while they were young.  I wanted it to nag at them.

So.

Now I'm doing audio journaling.

I'm so excited about this.

I miss our friendship.  You.  Indescribly valuable.

Yet I still don't know how to not ruin it.

It's July.  And my question each day is how do become a value add?

How am I all that?

The limit of a lifespan ever threatening.  The memories of the past to weave into a story for Bryan and Breeanna.  The countless articles that I will write...to them, on their behalf, from my concern.

Our children.

Can't kill them.  Can't live without them.

Journal...

https://recorder.google.com/share/83b93172-730d-4329-9a10-d6e92cf92411