Dear Mom Letter #1

Dear mom,

I'm sorry that we don't understand each other.  

I'm sorry that you were born a generation before me and I don't have the values of that generation.

I'm sorry that there is a cultural divide between us.  

There's so much difference between you and me.

And I'm sorry for that. I wish it was different.

I'm sorry I couldn't go to Las Vegas when you asked me to. I couldn't leave my daughter. I feel that would be abandonment.

I'm sorry I screamed at you. I make $15/hour at my age because of many reasons but the most important reason is that I chose to spend the time nurturing my children instead of applying it to the job market.

I'm a better person now and if you asked the same question I think I can now deal with it calmly to explain myself to you.

You've had a lot of people let you down mom. Many times it's you who drives them away. And when you are responsible for the loneliness in your life it hurts most of all.  

Mom I want your life to be whole. I want your brother to be in it, me and the children to be in it. We have to broker this somehow. It won't be easy. And I don't know how to fix everything. But I know that I love you. I know that I care about you. I know that you are worth my effort. 

The rest of it is everything that I don't know.

Betty