#2 April 14, 2021

Journal: April 14, 2021

Today was so quiet and empty in my life.  I usually text Mike all day.  That makes the time go by.  Now that he's gone.  There's silence.  And what am I going to do with that?  

I wish I was good enough to deserve his friendship.  I taught Mrs. Callahan's science class today.  The kids were a little wild and rambunctious, nothing I can't handle.  I think somebody took the essence out of colors today.  They seem to have their brightness dimmed.

I'm trying to sort out a new reality where Mike is not my best friend.    It's quieter.  Life is flat.  It conveys itself in shades of gray.

Jeff and I might have something brewing.  Maybe.

My take away so far is that I notice word choices to convey a concept.  People have a roundabout way of conveying their point, like they don't have any idea about how to state what's going on.  

This is a revelation to me and it was exactly what happened between me and Mike.  I failed to understand the things that he was trying to communicate to me in his way.  

My YouTube project is picking up speed.  I'm lining up many interviewees.  I pray for content that will make a difference.  The principal of Thurgood Marshall is on the slate for Friday.